Gooday and Welcome to My World
I was born in 1952 and experienced physical and mental abuse as a child. By the age of twelve, I was also sexually abused by a neighbour. By age fourteen, I was wagging school and out of control. By age sixteen, I was homeless, living on the streets and in trouble with the law. I spent time in youth detention and, with the help of an excellent mentor, was able to get my life on track. At age twenty-one, I got married and started a family, life was good.
At age thirty, and on my Dad’s 65th birthday in 1982, I died and was revived after a horrific truck accident. I believed that there was a reason why I was alive and started a quest to get answers. Despite extensive study into ancient history, cultures and religions, all I got was mental and addiction disorders.
My life fell apart, not so much because of substantial physical injuries, but because of the fifteen years of mental suffering that followed. My mind was like a drunken monkey, very busy and all over the place! I experienced psychosis later that year and spent time in a mental health unit. I was diagnosed with mental ‘illness’ and prescribed medications. I had similar episodes in 1984, 1987 and 1992; the only thing that stopped me from suiciding was a tiny whisper that kept saying ‘There’s a reason… you’ll get through this!’
By 1997, I was rock bottom. Mental health professionals told me that I would never be cured, that I would have to take medication for the rest of my life and that I would never work again. I was ashamed that I had mental ‘illness’ and refused to talk about it or get help from outside the ‘system’. It was my dark secret. That was when I got my ‘miracle’. An old friend, who I hadn’t seen since before my accident, knocked on my door and told me his story. Two days later, I experienced a Spiritual Awakening and my life slowly started to change. No more depression and no more medications!
I now call that chapter of my life, my fifteen ‘dark’ years. It was a roller coaster of feelings, emotions and experiences. I value my ‘dark’ years now because I overcame many fears and learned heaps of life lessons. My quest for knowledge and answers continued. I now know the truth about what happened to me. In 82, 84, 87 & 1992, I experienced what is known as Spiritual Crisis or Emergency. I had no way of knowing what was really going on until my old friend shared his story. It was that story that led to my Spiritual Emergence in 1997. I got my life back and have never looked back, except to see how far I’ve come.
I also now know that bipolar is a gift. It’s not a gift that you would wish on anyone, that’s for sure! But when you wake up to what’s really going on, it is life changing. I have had times of ‘mania’ in 97, 03, 09, 2013 until now. These are simply times when I am totally inspired.
Over the last 7 years, I have been living with an elevated state of mind, I believe it is now permanent. I require no medication because I am in control of my mind rather than my mind controlling me. Today, thanks to a fully developed mindful practice, I live with both peace of mind and clarity of mind. Never lose hope my friends, there was a time when hope was all that kept me alive. Be well and remember… You are Not your thoughts!
Mindfully Yours with Love, Joy & Peace Always! – John Shearer
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Long may you run 🙂
Thank you Graham! Namaste – John
Thanks for sharing your story John, very courageous!
Jolly Welcome Sharon! In our weakness we find our strength. Mindfully Yours – John
Awesome. what did your friends story have to fo with your spiritual awakening though?
Gooday Linda – My friend turned out to be a guide from beyond who, in his words, followed his ‘spiritual’ prompt. He suggested that I attend a home meeting two days away. I attended the meeting and was introduced to the practice of ‘tongues’ and have been silently connecting to spirit that way ever since. Tongues feels tribal and comes totally from the heart. It allowed me to get out of my head and into my heart. Mindfully Yours – John
Hi John
All I know about tongues is that most people will not know what the words mean, not even the speaker, but it cn be understood by others who have the gift of interpretation. So if there is no one about who can interpret when you chant in tongues is it still of value?
Tongues takes me to a meditative state, a place of deep connection. I am always sure to finish with a silent mind so that Source Energy can message me. I have no need for interpretation. Be Mindful… Pause… Connect! Mindful Love & Light Always! 🙏💗👊
It was an honour to meet you on the weekend, and I look forward to reading your book.
Great story and very nice come back. You are a soldier and vet in this system and I salute you!
Thank you for sharing John
Jolly Welcome Wendy! Telling my story set me free! Mindfully Yours with Love & Light Always!
John. Thank you for sharing your story! Someone said to me the other day I am changing, I said NO! I have awakened. Such a beautiful feeling to feel peace heart & soul. I’m excited for my journey so far.
Much love & gratefulness always
Michelle
Thanku John, I’ve just come across your website after you posted in the UK. Susan
I am so excited to be here. to have found your Facebook page and to have read your story. I am looking forward to doing the work in your course. for sometime i have been thinking about mindfulness and here I am.
I will share my story on a later date. for now I am reading to gain more knowledge.
thank you again.
What a beautiful story! G of bless you! I have had a spiritual awakening, and live a radically new life, but I often feel it difficult to connect to my God, even when I believe I’m doing right. It’s not for lack of trying. Can you tell me a little about how you came to speak a heart language with your God? Thanks